everlast ☯ Twitter ☯ ☯ Instagram ☯ ☯ Dayre ☯ ☯ Ask.fm ☯ ☯ Nicolette ☯ August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 February 2012 March 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 January 2013 February 2013 March 2013 April 2013 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 August 2013 September 2013 October 2013 November 2013 December 2013 January 2014 February 2014 March 2014 April 2014 May 2014 June 2014 July 2014 August 2014 September 2014 October 2014 November 2014 January 2015 April 2015	Saturday, April 26, 2014 yucks got through the first week of school and it felt pretty surreal. it felt different from the previous year and i do not know why. nonetheless, since i chose to do it outpatient and on my own instead of depending on healthcare practitioners and having to live like a prisoner, i guess i'll just have to go with it. afterall, i am responsible for my own decisions. one thing though: school is allowing me to stray from the meal plan. skipping snacks between meals, unfinished supplement packets, more physical activity... while i am actually glad to be able to do all that, the people involved don't actually know that this is happening, and they cannot know that this is happening because then the outpatient option would be deemed unsuitable and i'll have to be admitted into what i think of as a lame loony bin. but the comfort i find in knowing that i did not hit the target number makes it difficult to adhere to the meal plan, especially since i have the freedom to do so in school. i don't know what to do but i do know very well that i'm going to continue doing this as long as supervision is absent with the presence of school. fekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!