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Monday, March 17, 2014

day 3

three days into recovery and i have to say i have been nothing but obedient. i swear i am trying but honestly i still hear "purge and restrict" so clearly and loudly; and all this discomfort isn't exactly helping.

i look like a pregnant child and i cannot face anyone and i do not want to face anyone and i just want to give up so so so bad. "your liver and kidney are failing"/"your heart is shrinking" etc. never affected me. more of the avoiding being an inpatient and less of all that bullshit. but then again there are so many people supporting me and they have given up so much for me and everything and i

just want 2 kms.