everlast ☯ Twitter ☯ ☯ Instagram ☯ ☯ Dayre ☯ ☯ Ask.fm ☯ ☯ Nicolette ☯ August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 February 2012 March 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 January 2013 February 2013 March 2013 April 2013 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 August 2013 September 2013 October 2013 November 2013 December 2013 January 2014 February 2014 March 2014 April 2014 May 2014 June 2014 July 2014 August 2014 September 2014 October 2014 November 2014 January 2015 April 2015	Wednesday, August 28, 2013 help Trying to get back on track everyday but when it's fighting against me it just seems impossible. Why can't I just do what the majority of other people do? Why can't I just look pass the negative outcomes? Why why why why why why why why why why why? Why is it so unfair? But is it really injustice, or is it what I've brought upon myself? ...better luck next time Saturday, August 24, 2013 how As much as I want this to last for as long as possible, I just can't change my perspective on relationships despite how badly I want to. It's just like this inability to say everything I mean is both my safety net as well as my downfall. And it's unfair to you because as much as I want to give my all to you I just can't, because I've been living with the mindset that the only person I should lean on is myself. Nobody else should have to carry the weight of/ be burdened by my difficulties and problems and stuff. But that's what you want me to share with you and I find it extremely difficult and most of the time I still end up not opening up which makes you upset, which makes me upset, which makes me make you upset even more; evolving into an (unhealthy) vicious cycle.  I really do not know what to do (or say) and it's basically like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. because i really do love you Wednesday, August 21, 2013 ugh FUCK I AM UNFIT AS HELL but fitness requires too much effort so wateva wateva (ノ￣ω￣)ノ Sunday, August 18, 2013 - More than often I ask myself why I got myself into this in the first place. It's like I voluntarily jumped into the well despite knowing that it'll descend to the bottom. Stupid. Monday, August 5, 2013 08/02 or 02/08 "I guess sometimes it's hard to distinguish between second chances and last chances."                                                                                                                                                  - Wes Moore I think I got what I wished for I hope I don't let you down once more -